Saturday, January 21, 2012

The days are as layered as my clothes and I long for the spit of Jacaranda lacing a pot holed street.
I race the highways and northern wind tosses me about, while my thoughts are caught in a scene of a warm shaded veranda, afternoon tea, Belgian biscuits and fruit from a tree. African dirt clogs my pores. It hangs around my neck on a chain, tangled, taunting. A carrot in front of a white girl.
My pot of chai boils and evaporates, as though it never was. It floats in the kitchen air leaving behind a heavy playful scent forcing late comers to use their imagination. With gentle force it's smell steps me into the past, as though I am redrinking my childhood through someone else’s teeth. It's an early morning school day smell, the kind that takes you back and awakens that little part of you that had forgotten how uniquely sweet chai can be.
But it is not a ghost and I am not a horse, and we will meet again in beautiful tea time reality.

H.A.

3 comments:

Lib said...

Heather--

I love that you are writing again. You are gifted with words and your blog is inspiring. It feels like a lot of stuff is stirring around in your heart lately...a lot of beautiful things...I look forward to seeing where He leads you.

I was thinking about you the other day, thinking about how I miss our Vegas weekend. I still think about that day in the Venetian, spread out on the tile floor with our coffee and pastries, enjoying good conversation. What great memories.

Also, I thought of you today in the car--a song came on by Josh Pyke--do you know him? I think you'd love him. Anyhow, the lyrics go...

I’ll be careful with you
If you leave your light on for me
My wandering heart
Is freer in your proximity
And if you can’t rely on me
Then that makes me exactly half the man
That I’d like to be

These lyrics remind me of the conversation we had in Vegas, about that tension between marriage and our wandering hearts.

Anyhow, hope you are well. Miss you.

Libby.

by Heather A. said...

Libby, your comment is so sweet. I think of that moment on the floor under the painted clouds, being serenaded by talented gondolier/aspiring actors. That was my favorite moment in vegas. I often think my blog is silly and no one reads it, so thank you for the encouragement!!

by Heather A. said...

I do have a lot stirring in my head. I am writing again after a year of not being able to. I feel like my heart was put on hold, and I have now gotten back, so I'm excited to see where it leads also:)..